Saturday, February 27, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Thank you Lord
My dear friend Cindi likes Pink Floyd. On Saturday I was working at concessions during a game and "Comfortably Numb" came on the radio making me think of her and how much I missed her, so I texted her letting her know. She texted me back telling me that she was thinking of me too, cause she was at Michael's and wanted a craft buddy. Ever since then Cindi has been on my mind and every now and then I would get the idea of giving her a call.
Also ever since then I have been struggling with the stress of my ridiculous situation of having no money to pay for tuition and living in Seattle and not having any idea as to why I am here. And when I started working on a letter that I will be sending to people that will be explaining my situation and asking for prayer, I had no idea if what I would write would be the right thing to say. I am taking this letter very seriously and really wanted to pray and consult God as to what He wants me to write down.
Today, I finally gave Cindi a call and she told me that God has put me on her heart the last three days to remind me of God's love for me, and that he will take care of me. She also had a bunch of great things that have been happening to her the past few days that were so encouraging to me and amazingly on the same subject of what I have been stressing out about.
And after that I listened to one of the sermons given a few weeks ago at my old church and received even more confirmation of trusting in God's power and Spirit rather than on my own deeds.
The fact is, God is my dad and He will never abandon me and nothing I do will make him change His plans for me. He knows my heart and genuine willingness to follow Him and I just need to trust my faith and realize that He is not fickle and will not be put off by my doubt. He knows my desire is to live a life with Him. Whatever that may mean. I can get so scared of making a wrong choice or screwing up His great plans, but I am just a small part and (Thank you Lord) I have no power in deciding how this is all going to work out. It is all on God and I just need to believe that I have the Holy Spirit in me guiding my choices and that that is enough. "The bottom line is that nothing is impossible with God. Not dollars and cents or training or experience." -Mike Erre (yay Rock Harbor) It is true that I am just a kid, but I have the God's Spirit in me and that is all that matters. He is real, He is alive, He is working, and He is SO great and gracious.
It is still difficult for me to fully grasp and appreciate what this all means but I know it is the truth of the Lord and I know He is working in me to become the person I was created to be. Though I am a long ways off from being that person it is absolutely FANTASTIC to know that God can and will use me for His work. I love Him so much and can't even believe the amount of grace He throws down on us when we don' even ask for it. I just love how God never relies on us. He is there always, even when wee forget to ask Him to participate.
Thank you Lord for always being in my life. Thank you for helping me when I am scared of what I don't understand or don't know what I am supposed to be doing. Thank you Lord for giving me peace in knowing that you do not rely on the fact that I am a "good girl" or "bad girl" when deciding if I am useful to you. Thank you Lord for letting my willingness and faith be enough for you. I love you Lord and I cannot wait to see whatever it is you have planned for me. Please show others the love and grace You have shown me and let them be comforted as I have been. I love you with all my heart and all my life. Please help me in understanding and forgiving others and please change me to be a person who trusts you and can stand firm in my faith and my love for everyone you have put in my life.
Also ever since then I have been struggling with the stress of my ridiculous situation of having no money to pay for tuition and living in Seattle and not having any idea as to why I am here. And when I started working on a letter that I will be sending to people that will be explaining my situation and asking for prayer, I had no idea if what I would write would be the right thing to say. I am taking this letter very seriously and really wanted to pray and consult God as to what He wants me to write down.
Today, I finally gave Cindi a call and she told me that God has put me on her heart the last three days to remind me of God's love for me, and that he will take care of me. She also had a bunch of great things that have been happening to her the past few days that were so encouraging to me and amazingly on the same subject of what I have been stressing out about.
And after that I listened to one of the sermons given a few weeks ago at my old church and received even more confirmation of trusting in God's power and Spirit rather than on my own deeds.
The fact is, God is my dad and He will never abandon me and nothing I do will make him change His plans for me. He knows my heart and genuine willingness to follow Him and I just need to trust my faith and realize that He is not fickle and will not be put off by my doubt. He knows my desire is to live a life with Him. Whatever that may mean. I can get so scared of making a wrong choice or screwing up His great plans, but I am just a small part and (Thank you Lord) I have no power in deciding how this is all going to work out. It is all on God and I just need to believe that I have the Holy Spirit in me guiding my choices and that that is enough. "The bottom line is that nothing is impossible with God. Not dollars and cents or training or experience." -Mike Erre (yay Rock Harbor) It is true that I am just a kid, but I have the God's Spirit in me and that is all that matters. He is real, He is alive, He is working, and He is SO great and gracious.
It is still difficult for me to fully grasp and appreciate what this all means but I know it is the truth of the Lord and I know He is working in me to become the person I was created to be. Though I am a long ways off from being that person it is absolutely FANTASTIC to know that God can and will use me for His work. I love Him so much and can't even believe the amount of grace He throws down on us when we don' even ask for it. I just love how God never relies on us. He is there always, even when wee forget to ask Him to participate.
Thank you Lord for always being in my life. Thank you for helping me when I am scared of what I don't understand or don't know what I am supposed to be doing. Thank you Lord for giving me peace in knowing that you do not rely on the fact that I am a "good girl" or "bad girl" when deciding if I am useful to you. Thank you Lord for letting my willingness and faith be enough for you. I love you Lord and I cannot wait to see whatever it is you have planned for me. Please show others the love and grace You have shown me and let them be comforted as I have been. I love you with all my heart and all my life. Please help me in understanding and forgiving others and please change me to be a person who trusts you and can stand firm in my faith and my love for everyone you have put in my life.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
LOOK!
I posted something!! yay...even though the picture quality is pretty bad... ITS STILL COOL!
please enjoy and marvel and the wonders of my Etsy store : )
please enjoy and marvel and the wonders of my Etsy store : )
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